First Step Done

three more to go.



:}

To Do.

checklist for the rest of the week:
- study for arthistory final on friday
- potato salad
- study for arthistory final on friday
- formandspace work
- bread pudding
- complete AA application online

checklist for summer:
- shop for spraypaint + make cutout stencils
- buy canvases and play
- use diana+ and develope film
- plan trip to taiwan
- diet (like always..)
- chill

to be cont.

Almost Done

fuck yes.
after tomorrow there will be exactly two weeks and three days left before school is out (including weekends). four months of freedom :) i've just finished the last of the heavy workload.. hoping for some time to relax. for the past two or three weeks i've done nothing but school work/home work. it's strange waking up and doing nothing but school related work till bedtime; feels like how life is supposed to be now.

oh well. 17 days and counting!!

away

i miss everything
and want to be home.

How Lucky Am I?

Honestly.
I've lived my life without an ounce of misery that could compare to what others have been through. i felt i've suffered but was it really suffering or just me being too weak? that's all it ever is though, isn't it? when things go bad, there's always a way to make it right, or to make it feel better. and when things get worse, there will always be a way to make it feel better. that's always been my point of view.

i'm not the type to complain, or at least i try not to. but whenever i look back at something i've done, i can't believe how much i really do complain, and about nothing at all. i'm one of the luckiest people i know and it might sound either cocky of unbelievable because nobody ever says that they're lucky compared to others. they always make themselves believe there life has sunk down to the lowest that it can't get any lower. they always go "fuck my life" or "my life sucks" and this is the reason i'm careful not to let those words slip out of my mouth because truthfully, i know life treats me well.

so how lucky am i? i have a boyfriend who loves me, great friends, great family and i think i can see future within reach now. so why is it that i doubt so many things in my head. why do i always expect more when i know it's all unnecessary. maybe that's how everyone else really is, maybe it's in everyone's heads.

Soon You'll Be Free

I hate the feeling you (or just i) get when you're away for a bit and feel so much more comfortable than you do at "home". then when you return "home", it doesn't really feel homely at all. more than that, it feels as if you've been gone for so long everything is out of place and it's that you feel you don't belong that gets to you the most. right now i'm feeling as though i'm living in a dream and all i'm doing is waiting to wake up. but i won't wake up, not for another few months. or a few years. hopefully i learn that this is no dream and that it's actually my future in the making, and maybe that'll be enough to make me find "home" in a place like this.

there's a list of songs that's always at the very top of my list. it's sad that every one of these songs take me back to one point in my life not too long ago that i really wish i was still living in. these songs are the ones that make me feel at home, but they're the ones that take the most out of me everytime i listen to them because i know that time is long gone. now i'm just waiting for another period of time that will make me feel the same way i did before. hopefully when i return, things will be the same.

don't worry or fret
what you hear is temporary
soon you'll be free.
- desperate desperado: you never would

Jump to Conclusions..

the idol for my future:

DigitalMash

I'm on it.

2 Hrs to Cook, 10 Mins to Eat

so i found this recipe online.. it wasn't much of a recipe, just unagi/egg/sliced avocado over rice. I wanted to make it or something similar because i was craving unagi but because I didn't get avocados i tried to make other things in it's place. i didn't realize how much longer the process would take. so here's my version of unagi donburi. there's a bowl of rice, a layer of scrambled eggs + green onions. a side of chopped cabbage cooked with garlic, and another side of vegetable tempura, all drizzled with teriyaki sauce. the tempura took me the longest (who knew it could be so tiring deep frying vegetables?!) the kitchen got very hot and i was starting to feel lightheaded by the time i was finishing up the last of the frying. topped off with a plate of cut sashimi, this dinner was very satisfying. i don't think i'll be making it anytime soon though..


why is it that i'm always blogging about food =(

Sweet Tasty Dreams

been avoiding homework this past week and in replace of it there's been plenty of baking! yay good fun times. and can i please thank chau<3 for showing me my alltime favorite website in the world. it beats facebook by far.

Red Velvet Bonbons
these were meant to be made on Valentines Day as a 'spending time together and making something fun' kind of thing.. but we didn't make them till wednesday. oh well, at least they're delicious. the original recipe called for nothing but.. a lot of chocolate (plus cream cheese, vanilla, etc.) so i decided to add some cinnamon into the dip mix (outside layer) to make it more interesting.














they look like hills of poo.
















Snickerdoodle Cookies
I looked for the simplest recipe for Snickerdoodles because thats what i was craving and was short on ingredients in the apartment. So these were technically just sugar cookies coated in cinnamon+sugar. we made them twice because my roommate had finished the first batch a bit too quickly. the first attempt, we decided to add sweetened coconut shreds in just because it was so tempting.. not such a great idea. the second attempt was a bit better i guess. too bad the recipe only made about 7 - 8 small cookies.















my only picture =(

Snickerdoodle Blondies
this was the most exciting recipe of the week, and they turned out reaaalll good. it's a shame i didnt have any vanilla icecream to top them off them, but don't matta. I guess i had a shitload of cinnamon this week since i used it in all my sweets..



















before the oven..














after. they're most exciting when cut up. mmm..

i wanna go for salty recipes next.. so on my list:
Parmesan Crusted Baked Zucchini Sticks (w/ Marinara Sauce)
Fried Glass Noodles (sounds weird but looks good)
Soba Noodle Salad w/ Sweet and Spicy Tofu
zomg i'm so excited.

Good Times Rolll

BOMBass weekend it was so much funnn. but now i miss everyone =(
santa monica. irvine. laguna. shopping. eating. piercing. baking.
such satisfactionn

i wanna make truffles.. and pasta and snickerdoodles!

Excitation (if that's a word..)

SO excited for tomorrow =) i hope this weekend doesn't go by too fast.

Feburary 11th, 2009

didn't have class (YEE). instead, there was a Foundation Forward event where i got to meet with the head of the CommArts department. I hope i made a strong impression. got home around two and soon after the <3 came. my roommates 'surprised' me by baking me a cake with gummybears in the the shape of the letter V. too bad one of them is very bad at keeping secrets. later hookah-ed, cheesecake-ed, and hottub-ed. it was nice.

today there was free pizza while we got to meet with head/faculty/students from the major we're going into. I tried to seem open and involved with the people there; i want to be known in the graphic design/CommArts department. keke. today and yesterday has made me very excited about my future.

Wish(list) Come True

SHINY TIGHTS and GLADIATOR SANDALS

i'm so excited for my new clothes!

and a new bag :}

had benihanas today with the roommates, jennay michael and uly it was pretty nice except my side order of calamari saute was a bit less than satisfying. the fried rice was yummy as always except i had to pick out all the bits of chicken. on thursday, my one month pescatarian "diet" will be over. i'm a tad surprised that i actually pulled through but it makes me feel really accomplished; its not even about dieting anymore. i should just continue this every other month or so. go green + fish!

Bringing in the Ox

Today is Chinese New Years, i expect that my mom put in the 60 dollars into my bank account for my new years money like she said she would. I don't know the meaning for 'six' as a lucky number, but i trust her. its almost 9PM right now and i'm supposed to be doing reading for english for tomorrow but i don't really give a damn for it and i would rather be rambling to nobody and watching some more boy meets world.

I don't know if it's my PMS taking over (probably is) but i've was feeling a bit empty and low this past weekend even though i had the love with me. maybe my homesick from winter break is finally hitting me. A few days ago i took a personality assessment test in class and the results say i'm an 'extrovert'; in other words, when i'm suddenly alone after a while of being around friends, i feel depressed. that's very true. i am beyond excited for presidents day weekend however, ready to see some people again :}

last night i read this years horoscope for the year of the horse. it's good news for finances. bad news for work, relationships, and health :(

xing nien kuai luh to you all

If I Could Change The World..

lately things have been feeling different, even though i've been around my old friends and hometown more. i don't understand? i guess i've just been too happy to be home that i'm not used to it.

if i could change the world..
i would make life one steady road, so that we wouldn't have to experience change and feel hurt when we think back to happier memories.
pardon my emo-ness.

Morning Delights

woke up this morning craving last night's obsession. french toast. only what i made was french toast casserole, turned out just like bread pudding. still good though.



i wish every morning could just be like that. waking up over and over looking forward to something that day, and remembering something great from the day before. wouldn't that be great?

(Not Actual Size)

baked these babies with my baby today<3 jk, just chau (ha-ha-ha; she is my baby), they actually.. look sorta like the image. on one side of the pan of course because only one side got broiled. and today i learned what broiling is! pretty good except they looked messy because of the cutting. mmm.. many more recipes to go.

- chocolate mascarpone cheesecake pots
- white chocolate cheesecake w/ raspberry sauce topping
- pumpkin corn muffin with cranberry butter
- zucchini cheddar bacon cakes
- ... much much more

i've been staring at recipes far too much these days.

Chills

i can never tell when you're being cold or just being yourself
sometimes there's really not much difference.

but it wouldn't matter anymore anyway right?

Not So Cocoa-y Cocoa Chocholate "Chip" Cookies

I took a simple chocolate chip cookie recipe I found (supposedly, it was for making 'extra chewy' cookies) and just mixed in cocoa power, plus a single chocolate-covered blueberry piece ontop. it wasn't as exciting as i had hoped it would be. It turned out the cocoa taste was barely there and the chocolate covered blueberry on top was.. a mistake, visual-wise.


















had to set them on a cupcake pan turned over T-T since my mom decided to throw out our flat baking pan.























the sticky goodness.



















my cookies that look like boobs.