At Peace.

How right you were that this subject can't be avoided. i've been having many mood swings lately, but all i want to be is happy and reassured about my future, about our future, everyone's future? i find myself caring less about where i end up going (just away from home) and more about where others are going. more about whether they're happy with where they've got to go. and as for me, i'm hoping for, at least, acceptance to one school so i can worry less about having nowhere to go. why in the world did i have to wait so long to finish my first application. because that's what i do when i'm scared. i wait and believe that i have the power to hold back time. oh, i was so wrong.

here i am, talking about college when it's the last subject i want to hear.

i've been listening to a lot of Beatles lately, since my brother brought home his rented Across The Universe. a few nights ago, my momma was sitting near me on the couch while i played some old, familiar songs. She told me how old she was when she used to listen to these songs. She had been around my age, listening to Beatles, Elton John, PaulSimon and ArtGarfunkel. and now, being the same age she was, i'm listening to them too. It's kinda amazing how time flies and some things can still remain the same. I hope, if time were to fly as quick for me, that some things will still stay the same in the future.

Ready, Steady, Go.

you really think you're all that great?
make some room for self-improvement, why don't you.

fine. i will.




some pictures.

One By One My Strings Tangled Into Knots

life is so strange now.
everything comes unexpected and like never before. things are so different and they don't seem to be changing back. at least not anytime soon. now they're piling up in ways i've never had to deal with before. i don't know why i don't attempt to fix things. i believe that's just how i am, which is never a good thing. i let things go too easily, even when i said i never would. i'm hoping the people i believe in are still true and will stay forever. but that's hard to say since i'm the one that's constantly changing. all the things i've lost are of my own faults and i can say that's not a good feeling. and what i've gained and still have, i intend to keep for as long as i can.