i'm going away for a while, but i'll be back don't try and follow me

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

...
'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles

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i wish summer would come sooner; a new semester is starting and although there is no doubt i love what i do, i don't feel like going through hell again.. not yet. i keep expecting the weather to warm up even more so that i can go back to my shorts and tank tops. it's not about wearing less, it's about the feeling of being free, and if clothes is how i feel it, then it'll be how i express it.

things are changing again, i can feel it. but this time, it feels kinda nice.

wwJdwsid

"..Seen bright lights in the midst of clouds and then
Talked to God, feeling like his child again
Said 'Lord let me live so I can make you proud again.'

The life we lead, will always lead us
And we pray that he, will never leave us
It's the price we pay, I guess that's the reason
Why my [mama] sang, we all need Jesus"

Common - Misunderstood

"Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore"
- The Smiths

More than ever now i can feel changes in my life.
the school year is ending and next year will be my third year in college, high school seems so close that i still think back to what we did over the weekends as if it were just last month. this summer will probably be the last to feel a real summer vacation; to feel like a kid again. make the best of it.

Sometimes it's only when i'm with you that i can feel both of who i used to be and who i'm becoming. this is what keeps me stable and helps me remember myself, where i'm going and what's brought me here.
this will be our fourth summer spent together and i still remember our first. riding in your car, not thinking of where we were headed but only enjoying some sense of escape and living at the moment. and i still feel it.
don't bring me back to reality just yet.

"Don't speak now, you just drive, drive, drive
Drive, speed me through, make me feel alive
Alive when I ride with you.
Rain falling from concrete colored skies."
- Bic Runga

Dreams.

today I dreamt about dreaming
and waking up.
and the world was ending.

so is a dream still a wish that your heart makes?