Soon You'll Be Free

I hate the feeling you (or just i) get when you're away for a bit and feel so much more comfortable than you do at "home". then when you return "home", it doesn't really feel homely at all. more than that, it feels as if you've been gone for so long everything is out of place and it's that you feel you don't belong that gets to you the most. right now i'm feeling as though i'm living in a dream and all i'm doing is waiting to wake up. but i won't wake up, not for another few months. or a few years. hopefully i learn that this is no dream and that it's actually my future in the making, and maybe that'll be enough to make me find "home" in a place like this.

there's a list of songs that's always at the very top of my list. it's sad that every one of these songs take me back to one point in my life not too long ago that i really wish i was still living in. these songs are the ones that make me feel at home, but they're the ones that take the most out of me everytime i listen to them because i know that time is long gone. now i'm just waiting for another period of time that will make me feel the same way i did before. hopefully when i return, things will be the same.

don't worry or fret
what you hear is temporary
soon you'll be free.
- desperate desperado: you never would